** means there were details that could invade the girls privacy so, i removed it.
From my childhood itself, I was a very shy kind of boy, and getting into a relationship was a big deal for me. I was too shy and far from all these things that I remember my cousin brother Siddharth saying that even if God comes and says that Navneet is into all these things, then I won’t believe him.
Time passed, I became 18 and I (**).
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There was a girl who (**), but I felt very good talking with her. Her voice was killer, and I used to talk to her for hours and share things about me that I didn’t even share with my parents and siblings. I was too comfortable with her.
We both (**) and used to talk. (**) . She also said a lot about her, and knowing her struggles, I felt really bad, and I could relate to a few things she said. After she shared her struggles, I couldn’t get her out of my mind. I would think about her every day and night.
Also, I was too shy to share my feelings with her, but I really wanted to do it, as she said that she had a crush on a boy and was to propose to him February 14th 2024.
So, on December 28, I told her not (**). Until that point, she used to call (**). LOL. At that time, she knew that something is going on this boy’s head ( She said me after we got into relation )
The next day, I told her that I wanted to say something but I don’t have the courage. I want to tell you so you ask the right question to me. We were having all these conversations in (**)
At last, she asked, do you love me ? I had the bait and I replied, Yes, you got the answer and I went off the (**). She again got me in and we then talked for another few hours until dawn.
When she came into my life, one positive change that happened to me was that I broke two of my addictions (both most common in boys), which were my life for more than 4 years. It’s not that I completely escaped the addiction but yes, I am able to control it. All thanks go to her.
On the third day of our relationship, I realised that I should have taken some time and prioritised my goals more than a girl, as I was talking with her all day & night and I was regretting it. We would talk for hours; the highest one ended for 7 hours straight. There were a considerable number of nights when I slept listening to her and vice versa. I couldn’t focus on the (**) or on my personal growth but since I proposed to her, there was no chance of backing up. It had become a liability rather than an asset. In simple words, I wasn’t ready to take on a relationship. I was just 18 years and 1 month old.
I was very loyal for a few days, and I wouldn’t even look at other girls, but slowly, I started getting attracted to other girls. I don’t know why it was happening. That too (**)
I said to her also that I was getting attracted to other girls as well. I then, on a regular basis, used to bring other girls into the conversation, and I also made her cry on various occasions. I messed things up and clearly, I didn’t deserve her.
Being brutally honest, I had a crush on almost every girl I saw.
So, on January 27, 2024, I made my stand clear: I am not ready for it. Let’s be good friends, and we will see what happens later. Also, at this time, my goals were more important than those of a girl, so I prioritised them.
It was difficult to get out of it, and I used to think a lot about her, but time heals everything.
What I have learned about me till now is that I get bored of people. I have a to-die-for crush on girls, and if I get them slowly, I get bored, and I get that crush on someone else.
One thing I could suggest from my 27 days of relationship is that your spouse is someone who’s going to be the longest with you and is going to have the highest impact on you, so don’t hurry; take time for it.
Secondly, attraction and love are different things. Take your time to differentiate, or be ready to regret it.
And last but not least, don’t get into it. Work on your goals first, and you can get anyone.
This is Navneet signing off from today’s blog.
Peace 🕊️