Why am I an atheist

I wasn’t a religious boy from my childhood itself neither did my parents did/do regularly worshipping of God. They worshiped god occasionally and the same trait got passed on to me. For a very long time in my life, I would suddenly become a religious person whenever I was frightened or I needed something. I would beg God that if you do this I will do it and so hence and so forth.

I remember before I saw my class 10th result I begged God that please get me 80%+ marks and I would study very hard in class 11th and 12th. I got 81% marks and I didn’t study hard in my intermediate exams which resulted in me getting 72% marks.

Always after my need was over I would become an atheist. However, this doesn’t mean that I stopped going to temples or hate God or something like that. I ignored God but leaving him completely was difficult because I was frightened that If I left God he could do anything, I would attach anything bad happening in my life with me not worshipping God.

I still remember myself begging God whenever I visited a temple. I remember when I went to ISKON temple, Patna I was shouting the name of Ram & Krishna like hell. I guess if I go to the temple now I will do the same thing.

Slowly and gradually I became attracted towards becoming an atheist, I don’t know because there is no single possible reason for it. I even remember lastly when I went to a temple I said to God that I was not there to ask something. I just want to ask about your well-being and it was very abnormal for me as I used to beg and see my parents beg in front of God for 17 years + now. 

It might seem a bit controversial but still, I will share what I think. I keep myself not equal but above God. For me I am God. I believe that there is no God and if he exists then I am bigger, better, kinder and mightier than Him. My thoughts could change or evolve but this is what I think now. Also, I won’t force anyone to think like I do.

I am an Hindu Atheist or an atheist and any success or failure I get in future, I will be fully responsible for it. 

Also, I like some of the ideologies of Swami Vivekanand and Dhruv Rathee so, I guess I am a bit inspired by them. 

This is Navneet signing off from today’s blog.

Peace 🕊️

Edit ( 13-09-2024 ) – I came to know yesterday that there are many types of atheists and i am literally confused which type of atheist am i. So, i am going to define my own rules of being an atheist.

I won’t believe in any religious bullshit, like Praying to God, going to temple, cutting nails on some defined days and all others.

I won’t believe in all of that but i don’t hate that either. I love socializing with people and if i am with nice people I will definitely indulge in these activities. Though i still won’t believe in it. I will be there for the people rather than God.