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05-05-2024

After I completed the 21-day no fap challenge, I was assured that I have left this bad habit of masturbating far ahead but recent events have again brought me to the ground.

I masturbated yesterday and as well as today thus draining myself out of energy and wasting my precious time. I just started gently because it was scratching a bit but then I lost it. After the challenge I have masturbated 4 times. I first tried to console myself by saying that I am not addicted as I am not doing it regularly and I can afford doing it sometimes but today I did it 2 days in a row. I know that something is wrong with me.

I can’t let this come again in my life. I can’t let this destroy my life Just because it gives me some pleasure for a few seconds. I want to divert my energy in doing productive work and reading books. I believe that they deserve my time & attention.

So for all these reasons I am again starting the 2.0 version of the challenge from tomorrow. Like the last time I am determined to complete it again this time. If I miss it I will re-start and will keep doing it. Either I succeed or I perish. There is no going back.

06-05-2024

Hey Navneet. Today was the first day of my No-fap challenge 2.0 and it went off pretty smoothly. There was a time in the afternoon when I was getting the urge to download some 18+ movies but I didn’t do it. I instead downloaded an inspirational one. Today’s day was a bit easy also because I was at my cousin’s house and masturbating becomes a bit difficult when you change places. Well whatever the reason, maybe I have completed the first day. I am pretty excited for this challenge and am dedicated to complete it too.

07-05-2024

Today was meant to be the second day of my challenge, but I lost it. I was at Physics Wallah Pathshala at Motihari, where my cousin brother took me to meet Manish Raj Sir, The meeting was getting boring, and I was getting an urge to pee, I found the toilet there and I Masturbated. I don’t know why I felt like that but I was feeling like I was getting a new experience so fuck the challenge and just do it. It’s the third time I’ve masturbated in the last 4 days. I am again going in the death valley, and I know that there is no coming back if I get into it.

I am also feeling very guilty, I am feeling weak, my legs are a bit trembling and I am feeling confused. I am sorry Navneet. I promise I will complete the challenge this time. 🥺As promised, I am resetting the challenge and it will again re-start from tomorrow. I hope and believe that I will complete it this time.

08-05-2024

Today was the first day of my challenge and I am glad to say that I successfully completed it. It was a bit easy for today as I was to come to my Village from my cousin’s house and we were quite busy from morning packing. I am determined to complete the challenge this time and since I promised it to myself, I will do it. Whatever happens, I don’t want to go too easy; I want some adventure. Let’s see what happens.

09-05-2024

Second day of the challenge and it was as smooth as butter. Not even a thought of consuming porn content or of masturbating.

I think that whenever I am accountable I can better control my thoughts and actions.
Whatsoever I am done

10-05-2024

Today was the third day of the challenge and needless to say, it went as smoothly as butter. When I slept, I felt like I had nightfall but that wasn’t the case. I am glad that I have completed today’s day without masturbating.
Though I am not feeling any significant change in myself, I will still keep going.

I believe that I will again complete this challenge. 18 days more to go.

UPDATE: I masturbated after writing the above experience. I failed again. I again lost the promise I made with myself. The challenge will again start from tomorrow.

11-05-2024

Aha, so here I am after failing the challenge two times, trying for the third. Being the first day of the challenge, it was smooth as butter and too easy. I didn’t get any thoughts of masturbating or watching porn. 20 days more to go. Do it, boy.

12-05-2024

second day of the challenge, and it went off pretty easily. I was travelling all day from Sagauli to Bettiah to Motihari, so I didn’t get enough time to think about these things. I am well off from this addiction, as far as I know. I am again on track. I hope that I complete this challenge in time. 19 days more to go.

13-05-2024

3rd day of the challenge, and I am glad that I completed it. Earlier this morning, I was getting some arousals, but after that, everything was good. Once I am busy or with people, I don’t get thoughts of watching porn or masturbating. I saw a half-sex scene in the webseries Dark. 18 days more to go. Do it, boy.

14-05-2024

Another very easy day with no bad thoughts. I was at my cousin’s house and also met one of my aunts (Fua)) and I loved meeting her. Whenever I am social, I don’t get any bad thoughts. I will have to take care of myself when I go to my village, as I lose my will there only. Let’s see. 17 days more to go. Let’s do it.

15-05-2024

Today was the 5th day of the challenge, and it wasn’t that smooth. I had only a few hours of WiFi left, so I downloaded a lot of movies & web series. Needless to say, a few of them were 18+. I was getting some urge to masturbate today, and I was getting aroused, but I still controlled myself. I knew that if I started, then I would not be able to stop myself. It was difficult, though. I was constantly thinking about going to the bathroom and masturbating. Whatever, I completed today’s day also. 16 days more to go.

16-05-2024

I lost it again. Yesterday I downloaded a lot of porn movies and webseries, and since they were so easy to find, I watched them and couldn’t help myself. I am going to delete all the further porn movies and webseries. I have no idea where I am going again. It will be bullshit if I say that I am feeling guilty. I was tempted earlier today to drop the challenge, just like the 21-day no-liar challenge, but “They don’t know me, son.”. I will again reset and continue the challenge. I will do whatever it takes to complete the challenge. This is the third time I failed, trying for the fourth time.

17-05-2024

I lost it again. I am literally in the dip. I can help but watch porn & masturbate. I will be pausing this challenge for now before I get some inspiration. My life was going good and I was getting control over myself but no self control comes when you get the urge to engage in these sexual activities. I don’t know where I am going. I failed it for the 4th time in this challenge. I don’t have energy to try for the 5th time. My lust is now controlling me. I can’t just continue the challenge if I treat it like “my dairy” and cry everyday after breaking the challenge. 

I need to reassess myself and I gotta have some self-talk. Will update by tomorrow. Bye

18-05-2024

Masturbated again.

Note: I am pausing the challenge for now, will make a comeback after getting some cartilage in my mind.

19-05-2024

Okay. I am not allowed to do this but since I didn’t masturbate today and have gained some courage so I will restart the challenge once again. If this time I masturbate then I will close the document forever for good. I have lost the challenge 5 times in this doc and I am trying for the 6th time. Cheers to my 1st day. 20 more days to go.

20-05-2024

2nd day of the challenge and it went off pretty easily. I am not in a mood to write more. Will meet tomorrow. 19 days to go. 

21-05-2024

3rd day and won the day too. I am currently juggling with a lot of things, so I really can’t think of masturbating. 18 days to go

22-05-2024

I lost it again this morning. I lost the challenge for the 6th time today and I am going to try for the 7th time. I am more persistent than this fucking challenge.

“Persistence is the only known antidote for failure” – Napolean Hill

23-05-2024

1st day of the challenge and I am glad I completed it. Since I had masturbated twice yesterday so, I didn’t get that urge to do it again. 20 days to go.

24-05-2024

I masturbated again. Not having a definite purpose in my life is hitting me hard. I have got no power to let the challenge continue. I am in the worst of the bad situation. When I got the urge to masturbate I was in my senses I know that I can’t do that but I still did it. I don’t have any self control. I am dying. I have already lost the challenge 7 times and now I will have to try for the 8th time.

25-05-2024

01st day and you know that I didn’t masturbate. Whenever I masturbate, the next 1-2 days go very smoothly. The real turbulence starts in 5-6 days. 20 days to go. 

26-05-2024

2nd day and it too went off pretty easy. In the evening I was thinking about some imaginary girls ( wives ) and that was getting me some arousal. Other than that, all okay. 19 days more to go

Note: After writing about the experience I watched porn and masturbated again. I am clueless. 

I have lost 8th time and it’s not about losing but it’s about losing the self control I thought that I had acquired. I am an insane mad boy. I will start for the 9th time tomorrow.

27-05-2024

I watched porn & masturbated again today. I am ashamed that everyday I have to tell people in public that I masturbated & watched porn. I have lost the 9th time. My energy that must be being used in some creative work is now going in watching porn & jerking. I am ashamed of myself. This disease is eating me from inside & out. How happy was I after completing the no-fap challenge 1.0. Ohh🥺😔

28-05-2024

Today at midnight I was getting bitten by some mosquitoes and I was half asleep. I don’t know what came to mind, I woke up, watched hard porn & Masturbated. 

29-05-2024

1st day completed, feeling good about myself. 20 days more to go.

30-05-2024

2nd day completed. I know I have to complete the challenge as my haemoglobin is at 9 points & I need at least 12 points to donate blood & I believe this act of mine has an impact on my health. To donate blood I must leave masturbation. Also, I will be at my maternal grandmother’s house for a few days so I have an upper hand. Well let the future decide that. 19 days more to go. Life is enjoy. 

31-05-2024

Yesterday I wrote about having an upperhand in this challenge and that same upper hand worked against me today. I was guarding the litchi trees, when everyone went I masturabated. I thought that I wouldn’t be able to do it without watching porn but I still somehow did it. I also meditated earlier today. Fuck. I thought that I would have some self control but all in vain. I am done. I have no idea what to do. 

01-06-2024

Needless to say, I completed today’s day. 20 days more to go 

02-06-2024

Had a very bad nightfall at 3 am but it was easier for me to complete the challenge. 19 days more to go.

03-06-2024

I felt like masturbating when I was asleep but I am glad that masturbating here at my maternal grandmother’s hours is not that convenient so, I got over it. I am also off porn for these days, I know it’s dangerous. It increases the dopamine threshold and then I won’t feel the motivation & drive in the things I really want to do. 18 days more to go.

04-06-2024

Won the day but indeed it was difficult. I was getting urges to masturbate. Had it been convenient I might have done that also. Going to my village ( Chainpur ) can prove dangerous for me as I might again masturbate there. Let’s see 17 days more to go.

05-06-2024

I am clean until now. I am in my village ( Chainpur ) , so I am in a vulnerable state now. Whatever, I completed today’s day. 16 days to go.

06-06-2024

I was afraid that if I come to Chainpur I might masturbate in solitude and the same would happen. I tried masturbating a few times, controlled most of them but the last one got me. I watched porn too. I can feel my head vibrating. I failed again. I failed for the 12th time. I will try for the 13th time.

07-06-2024

From Today morning only I was in a whole different mood, since I recorded a video confessing my mistakes; I felt relieved. The video thing worked so, I am going to record more videos, talking about my day in this 21-day No fap challenge 2.0.

08-06-2024

You guessed it right, I completed today’s day with flying colours without any struggle. I am also starting my health transformation journey from tomorrow. I hope it helps me in this challenge.

09-06-2024

Won today’s day also. I didn’t get that urge today. The reason for it may be me giving priority to my health and being busy all day. Whatever is the reason I completed the 3rd day. 18 days more to go.

10-06-2024

4th day completed. 17 days to go.

11-06-2024

Now I believe that if a man has no sense of purpose he will deviate himself with cheap pleasure like Porn and Masturbation. It’s not like I recently found my sense of purpose but I do think that when I am busy working on myself I don’t even get a small urge to indulge in these activities. I am glad that I reached the 5th day after starting for the 13th time. Woo hoo. 16 days more to go.

12–06-2024

6th day completed. 15 days more to go.

13-06-2024

7th day completed. 14 days more to go.

14-06-2024

Completed today’s day too with flying colours. No thoughts of watching porn or masturbating. I have until now only completed 8 days. I still have 13 more days to go but I am dedicated to completing it. 💖💪

15-06-2024

I had a hard day today. I was at my Aunt ( Mausi’s) house. I got a room and a attached toilet and every now and then I was getting the thought of masturbating because I had previously experienced the same. I had masturbated when I came to her house before.

Whatever happened I won the day. I am happy and proud of myself. 12 days to go.

16-06-2024

Completed the day. 11 more to go.

17-06-2024

Ulalalalala. I completed the 11th day. Again an easy day. I got some arousal when I was listening to ASMR and a passionate one came into my way. Rest the day was good. I am happy & satisfied. Can’t believe that I have crossed 50% of the challenge this time. I really hope I make it again this time. 10 days more to go. Love you Navneet, ❤️‍

18-06-2024

Woo hoo. Today was the 12th day and needless to say that I completed the day. I am high on energy and my brain fog is fading away. I am meditating daily and in the last 3 days I have averaged 80+ pushups daily. I can also run 1300 metres non stop. I am driven to upgrade my health so, not watching porn & not masturbating is becoming a bit easy for me. I am also feeling more confident and I am feeling good for myself. Can’t believe that I made this far. Only 9 days to go. Will give myself a treat after 2-3 days & will also record a video. More power to you boy. Love you, navneet ❤️‍

19-06-2024

Again another easy day. The brain fog is still there. It will take some time to heal and I am damn sure that it will get healed once I get away from it for a few months, starting from this 21-day challenge. Having a purpose really helps in quitting an addiction. I feel that I should have done that early on in my life. Still I am happy. I love you Navneet, just complete this challenge this time and give yourself a momo treat tomorrow. Get some junk food inside your tummy. You need that. 13 day completed 8 days to go. Okay bye ❤️‍🔥

20-06-2024

21-06-2024

15 days completed, 6 days to go.

💜 

22-06-2024

I am sorry Navneet. I let you down. I again masturbated in the showers. It hurts but I gotta restart the challenge the 14th time.

23-06-2024

Day 1 completed. It was as smooth as butter with a couple of periodic arousals.

24-06-2024

Day 2 completed. 

25-06-2024

Today’s day was fucking hard. I tried doing it and how I got over it I only know. When I am in the mood the animal inside me awakens. I didn’t understand anything at that time. Still completed today’s day. Day 3 completed. 18 days more to go.

Edit: After writing about my experience, I masturbated. I was getting too much thoughts of a girl.

26-06-2024

Obviously it was the first day so I completed it. 20 days more to go

27-06-2024

28-06-2024

Day 1 completed. 20 days to go.

29-06-2024

I masturbated again today even though I was on a fast. It’s out of my hands. I am enjoying the challenge though. I have failed 16 times. I will start for the 17th time tomorrow. 

30-06-2024

Yeah you got it right. I completed the first day of the challenge. 20 more to go.

01-07-2024

Can’t believe that more than half the year has passed. I completed my today’s day. The brain fog is getting lesser and I am having control over the brain fog.

19 days to go.

02-07-2024

I masturbated again today. Today there was nothing to trigger me. The balls were itching a bit. I sprinkled some powder and did it. I also watched porn. I am ashamed. I have failed 17 times. I will again re-start for the 18th time.

03-07-2024

I masturbated again today. I feel ashamed admitting it everyday online but I feel no self control. I did it when I was taking a bath today. I gotta change some things. I know masturbation is destroying me, I mean it’s destroying my self confidence so, I gotta use the punishment and reward system.

Punishment
RN i do 10 reps of pushups at once and from now everytime I masturbate I gotta increase one rep. So, from now onwards I can’t do less than 11 pushups at once. So, when I masturbate now onwards I will do it for good. I have a win on both sides.

Reward

Everyday when I don’t masturbate I can remove any of the tasks from my to-do list without feeling guilty for not doing it. I will also treat myself with street food every 5 days if I don’t masturbate. Let’ see how it goes.

I have failed 18 times. I will re-start for the 19th time from tomorrow.

04-07-2024

Day 1 and it was easy. I was going through some online resources to help me out though I didn’t get much help. I am enjoying doing push-ups in 11 reps. 20 more to go. 

05-07-2024

Day 2 completed. 29 more to go.

06-07-2024

Day 3 completed. Didn’t face any friction in the way of my challenge. 18 days more to go.

Edit– After writing about my experience, I masturbated at around 11:30 PM cause I wasn’t able to sleep and was getting restless.

Now, I have started doing push ups of 12 reps. 

I will start for the 20th time from tomorrow.

Also, each time I masturbate from now on. I will run 50 metres more ( So, it’s 100 metres + daily in round trip )

Masturbation is good

07-07-2024

Day 1 completed.

08-07-2024

I wasn’t able to sleep, so I masturbated at 11pm. I ain’t feeling guilty now because masturbating is eventually helping me.

I will be doing a minimum of 13 reps of pushups at a time and I will be running 50 metres ( 65 steps ) more than what I was running. Cheers. 

09-07-2024

I masturbated while bathing today, this time I couldn’t hold it even for a day. Will start for the 22nd time tomorrow. I think I must get into a relationship, that’s the only way to get out of this.

My pushups reps are now increased from 13 to 14 and my running distance from 2100 metres to 2200 metres.

10-07-2024

I watched hard porn and masturbated today since no one was at my house. I will be running at least 2300 metres and I have started doing push-ups with a minimum of 15 reps.

11-07-2024

I again watched soft porn and masturbated today. Woohoo i am on a streak. I have started doing 16 reps of pushups and will run a min of 2400 metres from tomorrow. 

12-07-2024

I am happy that at least I broke the streak of masturbating today. 1st day and I am feeling good. Starting for the 25th time. 20 days to go.

13-07-2024

Pretty day and i completed it. Didn’t get even a thought of it. The itching is also coming to an end ( I took tablets of itching ). 19 days to go.

14-07-2024

Got the day and fucking completed it. 18 days to go.

15-07-2024

On a streak of 4 days. 17 days more to go.

16-07-2024

I masturbated today. I was looking out for ASMR to sleep as I wasn’t able to sleep but then I started listening to porn asmr and that got me. I am still glad that I did it after 4 days. I will try to make it to a week this time. Will start for the 24th time tomorrow.

17-07-2024

Day one completed.

18-07-2024

Day 2 completed.

19-07-2024

Day 3 completed. When I hang out with friends like I did today I don’t even feel like Masturbation is a thing. 

20-07-2024

I masturbated again after watching the movie 50 shades of grey. Also I am taking a break from this challenge. It’s better for me to double down on things that I am good at rather than working on things that I suck at just to become average.

06-09-2024

I away from it for more than a week now. I also didn’t use my smartphone & laptop for the last 14 days. I am getting vibes that I will complete it this time.

14-09-2024

I am still on my victory chariot. I think that having a girl in your life helps a lot in these kind of addictions. Last time also when i was in a relationship for 27 days – it was too easy for me to control the urges. This time i ain’t in a relationship but i like a girl and i have told her that. I think that’s helping me out. Thank you Goddess ( her nickname – only she knows ) I am only short of a few days to complete this 21-day No-fap challenge.

17-09-2024

If i am not wrong – I think I completed the challenge. I have been fap free for 21 days thus completing this challenge. Cheers. It really took a long time but yeah.

Here is me ( picture clicked seconds ago ) after completing the challenge.